dear baby boy...

Dear baby boy, 

I really thought you were a girl... but I guess we're all about surprising mom and helping her work on developing her maternal instincts! I am so excited to have a first son! Keep growing though-- we all still need a little more time :)

I took a vote with the kids I work with and it was 9-8 with "Boy" winning!  (I noticed someone voted "girl" for someone else that was absent that day-- so I'm not counting that vote! sneaky kids.)      There are also some "you are asum" and "i love you baby" notes on there too.  We'll work on how to spell "awesome" some day :)

Here I am, about 20 weeks pregnant earlier this week. I was going through clothes trying to see what things look like with a little extra something going on up front :)  Wearing a blue shirt must have been a hint that you were a boy!

 And, here are your glamour shots! You were moving around A TON so it took awhile to get the pictures that we needed.  It's like you knew we were looking at you and you wanted to show off your skills.  I feel you move- I know!




I love your cute little feet already!!

And look at those chiseled facial features. You will be one handsome dude if you've got any of your dad in you :)

I imagine you'll have blond hair-- mom and dad were both blonds as kids. Dark monkey hair as babies, though!









And finally, I'll close with something I wrote a long time ago.  When we first found out about you coming into our life-- there was a lot going on in my head!  I decided to write to you then.
Written August 30.

Dear baby,

I'm just over 6 weeks pregnant and it doesn't feel real. I thought maybe if I write to you-- it'd help me think of you as a real little person who will take over our lives and home sometime in April. I hoped you would happen soon-- but we tried not to have our lives revolve around it because we knew it really wasn't up to us ultimately.  Though, there were a few moments where I wondered if you happened and even thought for more than a few moments that we might have a "made in China" baby.  God created you for us now and you're a miracle.  Apparently, you're due the day after my birthday and I could think of no greater gift.   [internet due date said April 20 until the doctor appt. due date said April 26]

For about a week, this has just been a secret between your dad and me (and the ladies who scheduled my first appointment).  So the secret part of it is making it feel a little unreal.  But I can't wait to tell our families in person and give my mom a great birthday present!  Then my insecurity catches up with me and I worry about people's reactions. We may have surprised a few people and we could have waited a few more years because "we're so young."  But I push aside the insecurity that has plagued me my whole life because I'm getting better at doing that now.

I feel like babies and pregnant women are everywhere now.  Gosh, I went through a lot of emotions that first day I knew.  Excited, disbelief, downright scared.  I guess I still feel those emotions, so really not much has changed.  I keep figuring out things I'm not (or wasn't) supposed to eat/drink/smell/do... but I'm really just trying to trust God to protect you.  I'll do what I can and I hope I can provide you a comfortable and healthy incubator.

I have a feeling you're a girl... but maybe that's because baby  girl clothes are so much more fun to shop for.  I really hope you have a full head of dark hair! I think once you start changing my body and cause me to get new clothes it'll be easier to think and talk about you more.

But for now, my sweet unborn baby, I'll treasure this secret and pray for you lots.

Love,
Mom