I took a test on an August Friday morning to confirm that I was pregnant. I had a small suspicion but tried not to dwell on it. I told myself all week that Friday would be the day. Ben didn't know that I was going to do this, so I knew he'd be a bit surprised if it was positive.
We tried (or Ben would try to remind me...) to not be consumed with conception and planning. It is a very easy thing to get consumed with and assume that we have all the control and power over it. Pregnancy is a huge miracle and we believe God is in complete control of miracles. And so, that was our mindset.
After seeing the positive results, I didn't really know what to do. Nothing instantly changed or outwardly happened-- so it was strange. I was happy, and then a little scared.
To tell Ben, I decided to create a plan for our 3rd bedroom to turn it into a nursery. I covered the desks, shelves, and chair in the room with sheets and labeled the placement of a crib, changing table, and rocking chair. Then I put a card, the positive test, and a little onesie that said "baby makes three" on a stool so he'd see it.
It wasn't that odd to tell him that I changed up the extra bedroom and I wanted to show him. There was always something new to show him when we were getting settled in our house. He kept trying to guess and asked me questions. I just told him to go look!!
He saw the room and then maybe took a second to really "get it." Instant tears and slight panicking. On my part-- not his. Ha! Ben has never given great reactions to surprises... and I was fully aware of that. He internalizes things first before outwardly reacting. I figured this one out a few times when we were dating!
Then we just sat and talked for a long time.
Oh yeah, and I wanted a future baby room decor from China so I picked out letters and a plaque at a store when we were there earlier this summer-- then tucked it away to bring out "some day." I'm pretty sure it was actually a European store in China-- but either way, this baby has a China souvenir.
The card was actually an anniversary card. I choose it because it said "you + me" and then I added the " = baby"
